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6.18.2009

Bad News, Good News

When I called Aaron last Thursday to report the heartbreaking news of our negative pregnancy test, he suggested that I take the rest of the afternoon off from work and spend some time crying out to God. He specifically encouraged me to read a few pertinent sections from A Gospel Primer. As I sat on our front porch and wept in weariness of getting bad news again and again, I read the following through my tears:

"[T]he gospel is the one great permanent circumstance in which I live and move; and every hardship in my life is allowed by God only because it serves His gospel purposes in me. When I view my circumstances in this light, I realize that the gospel is not just one piece of good news that fits into my life somewhere among all the bad. I realize instead that the gospel makes genuinely good news out of every other aspect of my life, including my severest trials. The good news about my trials is that God is forcing them to bow to His gospel purposes and do good unto me by improving my character and making me more conformed to the image of Christ" (p. 31-32, emphasis mine).

It's challenging to cling to the good news of the gospel when the bad news feels so very bad. I don't think I'll ever fully understand, in this life, how the trial of infertility is being made good in God's hands. But I trust, even as my eyes are dimmed by tears, that it is so. I trust that the precious news that my Savior has given me all of himself, that I am his and that he won't let me go - that good news will be my everlasting story and song.

8 comments:

Alex and Jill said...

I'm just now reading that the results were negative. I am so sorry. My heart just breaks whenever I read those words. I won't stop praying and believing that He's going to bless you with a baby.

((HUGS))

ap said...

Here from Lost and Found. Very sorry for your negative. I am glad that you have the frozen ones so that you don't have to stim again.

Stacey said...

Thanks for sharing this, Andrea. It's so hard to try to find any good in these situations. I'm glad the Lord is comforting you now. You've been on my mind.

Elisabeth said...

Thanks for sharing this Andrea. I needed this reminder today! As I pray for myself, I will also pray for you, that the Lord will use these trials to conform us to His image and that we will believe that He is working them for good in our lives.

Hillary said...

What an amazing passage. Thank you for sharing, and I said a prayer for you as you grieve.

Angela said...

I've checked your blog occasionally. I'm a neighborhood friend of Sheila's in CO. Even though I don't know you I am praying for a miracle, however and whenever, in God's almighty timing.

Anonymous said...

thank you for sharing this andrea. you are so eloquent but more importantly the heart behind the words encourage me in such a profound way.

May God be glorified in our tears.

judy

Glenna Marshall said...

Hope you're doing okay, friend.